Relationship material

Been thinking about relationships recently. Been joking about finding a boyfriend recently. Been very very tempted to grow a boyfriend/girlfriend out of super absorbent polymer and a bathtub of water, dress them in blue overalls and elope on a romantic beet-farming adventure.

I remember in high-school I was very stricly anti-relationship. This was back in high-school mind, with my fiercest argument based off the imperative of knowing oneself before intimately knowing another. Besides, high school was for fun! It was also for education, for making bonds, for learning to develop one's own sense of security and identity without the feeling of judgement, or the constance of living for approval from an external party.

Looking back, I would've rathered I just let people do whatever the hell they wanted.

I suppose the same still stands for myself now, except I'm open to a relationship for nothing less than the reason of having some fun.

Shallow? Possibly. Waste of money? Supposedly. Emotionally destructive? Definitely.

And maybe in 5 years I'll look back at when I was 18, and proudly tick off "utterly wasted by a frivolous relationship for the lolz" on my bucket list.

So what now? Stay tuned for Amy's Hot List: Platonic or Potential!

So far, so good

University was once a far away spectacle, a landmark in the long winding, on the slowly unreachable desert drive.
University was once too big, too smelly, too hostile.
Too fast, too forward, not sweet enough.

But give everything a pinch of time, a mix of friendship, another shake of cynicism with the tertiary education system,

and it's so far, so good.